ok, so i was pretty much right.
He did have something going on with another girl!
HE HAD A NEW GIRLFRIEND!
who tells you that as soon as they're back they will date you, and then date another chick.
I wonder if he's blind as well as stupid.
I told him, LAST CHANCE to be ANYTHING with me, and now he's nothing to me, he's less to me than shit.
Yeah, i cared at first, i mean it's hard not to care, when you believe someone has changed and stuff, and then they stab you in the back.
PLUS he gets his new girl to talk shit to me!
Whatever, neither of them are worth it :/
SO today, i was supposed to go hang out with this totally amazing kid! WHO I should not have feelings for at all!
But i think i do, which is kinda bad
because it's betraying my best friend but whatever, she's not my best friend anymore
ANYWAY, i slept in!
oops!
so i don't know if i can chill with him now, but i really wish i can!
Also there's another kid, that likes me more than i have feelings for him, but i do like him, that's no lie, he's sweet, but TOO touchy, im not gonna lie, i don't wanna do anything with him, but he can't stand it, and it bothers me ALOT!
asfhskjfhdskhgkdhfsg
I don't wanna eat anymore, so that piece of bread and grapes are enough, thats about 175 cals. maybe less maybe more
BLEH!
- Mood:
determined - Music:paper bag - Fiona Apple
but lately i've realized, alotta people look at me as if i am some sort of loser
that i have no friends, i never go out?
yeah well i do have friends, and i don't go out much, because well...
i can't bear to be around so many beautiful people around me
i isolate, i don't want to be looked down on
when i put clothes on, i truly feel like i should just take them off and never think of wearing them again because im so freaking FAT
maybe it's in my head, maybe i'm right
but i hate being out around people, and that's that
and nobody understands that, i get looked down on
whatever..
=/
- Music:Sophie - Eleanor Mcevoy
"oh i love you"
"oh i want to get back together"
"As soon as i'm back, i'll come see you, and we'll date again!"
Yeah, well making promises is easy isn't it :/
He never came to see me, instead he went and hung out with other girls at thrillz, and then lied, when it's obvious by the way he suddenly decided not to want me back
I'm so done with him!
I'm tired of trusting he's changed.
And then he starts lying to me!
With all i am going through, how can he be so cold.
Oh yeah, because HE don't believe when i say i'm suffering, that i'm sick, you know why he doesn't?
because he doesn't give a shit about me.
I'm seriously just another girl in his life, and i'm tired of it, i refuse to be.
Whatever, i'm so done.
i've barely been eating, my mom's starting to see, when i told her i'm dizzy the first thing she asked was if i'd eaten, honestly, it was from her pills that i overdosed kinda on, but i mean i wasn't gonna tell her that. but i lied and said i've been eating, that was actually the first day i think i've actually experienced a bulimic moment, it was the first time i made my self throw up
how glamorous, serously my life is slipping out of my grasp at the moment.
- Location:Bedroom
- Mood:Ashamed
- Music:Not A Barbie Doll
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